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I was supposed to head to church with chelsea but in the end, i didnt. Was feeling pretty cranky like an old lady from the morning. In fact, for the past few days. But i've been feeling especially so today. As usual, I woke up to an annoying brother which after 10yrs, I havent gotten used to yet.

Then, as y'all know, we're supposed to not wear slippers, clothes that are too low cut and then jeans or smth over knees. I couldnt find anything to go with my jeans and I thought I looked horrible in jeans and when I found  things that could go with my jeans, they usually show a little cleavage line or reveal my tattoos.

I'm sick of wrapping up myself like a bazhang(dumping) in front of my family and now I go out also need to wrap like bazhang.

If i show any sign of cleavage OR tattoo, someone will definitely, guarentee say something. YES,including my family members. Well, people dont accept it.. And of cos, I dont blame them, this is society isnt it? And i'm someone who detests people telling me what to do or even beating abt the bush abt things like cleavage lines or tattoos. I prefer people to just tell me, " eh, ur cleavage" than compared to "erm...jean..u need a jacket..? or..do you need to go to the wash room to adjust..erm..ur shirt" But of course,this doesnt and will never apply for things like " You so stupid, or u so outdated etcetc" If u tell me this in a straightforwardy manner, I will silently curse you , or maybe outloud if u carry things too far and by all means embarress you 2times more than how u embarressed me.

So anyway, the bottom line is, I dont wna wrap myself up just to please others but neither do I wna be unpleased by stares or comments. So i rather not appear. That is the main reason of course, the 2nd reason is cos i was gna be like 45mins late. I dont know what they will think as well.

Million apologies to chelsea. I know sorry is nothing,but better than not saying.