Best kept secret.

Hey,You.
You build walls instead of bridges, and not just walls, these walls, they can shoot, they attack, they can kill. Kill the ego of others, their self-confidence, you make them feel like they aint good enough, which is really funny because yourself, you, havent got much self-confidence to speak of either. People would think those capable of making others feel worthless would be someone of great confidence and self-worthiness,but not you. The flaws that you see in people, that you point out so bluntly, are actually your flaws too. Perhaps, you bring people down  , you point out their imperfections , to make yourself feel better , but for the very same reason, you lose friends, people dislike you for how you make them feel, and people leave.

You are the choices you make. Really, can anyone ever be alone?

Whatcha say

Been meaning to blog , but my ultra slow network prohibited me from doing so, I'm heading out soon , so I shall continue when I'm back. :)
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Its all fun fun fun and more fun for the past week and so far, the 1st week of June has gone pretty well, I'm happy and all ,thats the way to start a month , yeah. Been spending my time with people closest to me and none with paper-plastic friends. :B I wonder why I even bothered with them. Probably just part and parcel of life.
And fun aside, I should start on some of my homework, though not much but still, i'm the master of procastination .
Ugh,I'm so bored, blogging is boring maybe I should just move somewhere and come back when I'm motivated and bothered enough.

The early days,

Retail therapy in the night with vanessa yesterday and spent the day with ♥ , shall not elaborate further but it was rather..unpleasant. I got lots of loots for myself though! First day of the GSS ;)
I'm only updating coz class chalet's tomorrow & I'll feel guilty,for some reason or another if I leave my blog un-updated. :)
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Its almost 2am now, my eyelids are really heavy & I've to wake up at like 10 and go withdraw $$ before chalet or i'll be a shitty broke ass. I spent my saturday at home watching movies on funshion , the shows were good enough but my computer buffers videos at the bloody slowest shitass rate ever. :@ So anyway, while waiting for my shows to be done buffering ,I did some thinking , why why why do I always go with my heart. Just when I thought I was so close to sorting things out, I fucking backed out and decided to just sit back and hope that everything will tide over soon, which somewhere within me, I know that even if it does tide over,soon enough, it'll be back again. :( WHY am I so fickle ? WHY am I not strong enough to go ahead with my decision? whywhywhy. why are there so many things that I cannot express. UGH.
Furthermore, in my frustration, I ate 2 freaking magnum icecream sticks AND 2 fugging cornetto icecream cones. REALLY. Someone just kill me. *&^%$#@!~

PS/photobucket seems to be loading at snail's pace too,so I shall skip the visuals and head to bed. goodnight.

Red Hot.

I still havent gotten the pictures, so I guess I'll just do an update on what I've been up to post-MYE . :)
To sum things up a little, I've caught "Thor" & "Fast and Furious 5" at the cinemas with my two favourite people. Personally, I prefer fast & furious 5 to thor though I've heard tons more compliments paid to Thor than to F&F5, or it probably is because I didnt pay much attention during the screening of 'thor'... :p I have of course also been immensely indulging in my favourite activity- shopping :B

Been stuffing myself silly too, just last night, I headed to chompchomp for a rly sinful dinner with ♥ that included bbq wings, carrotcakes,satay,hokkien mee and the list goes on. We could literally roll home la & sleeping with a full stomach is like..my secret cure to insomnia cos I can fall asleep just about instantly :D & not to mention,about a week back, I had awesome asskickin xiao long baos @ Paradise Dynasty w/ vanessa,brian,aphi & kokwee. Some of the dishes we ordered:

The xiao long baos which we ordered 20 of.

On a sidenote, something I'd just received on facebook 5minutes ago :

Seriously? He totally spammed me and in the process hanging my computer with the "sex" -3- AND he expects me to give me his address?? -.- Annoying , disgusting and desperate. Totally off my friend's list already la.

And some info I found while googling around for my horoscope:

Leo women are not very careful about money and you will have to restrain her in this aspect. She can indulge in extravagance to fulfill her desire for exquisite furnishings, home décor, gifts for friends or even her own clothes. However, one thing is for sure, neither her home nor she will ever look ordinary. Her taste may be a bit expensive, but it is also excellent. [ Leo females make affectionate mothers.(really?) ]
 She wants her independence and will give you yours too. At the same time, she is extremely jealous and possessive and even the slightest suspicion can make her go mad. So, better not try to play the jealousy invoking tricks on her. She doesn't warm up to strangers, but she will not give them the cold shoulder also. 
Leo women are very popular amongst the opposite sex and they like to receive male attention and compliments. So, you will get plenty of reasons to be jealous. Remember that all this assures her that she is good enough, but she will always be in love with you. With the Leo girl, you have to maintain a difficult balance. Don't let her control you, but then don't make her feel dominated too. If you manage to do all this, you will be getting the love of a woman most of the other men just dream about! HAH.

Alright, time to get on with my homework now. Sad, no? A week after exam and homeworks are streaming in again.AND, speaking of homework, for once and for the first time in my secondary school life, I'm actually satisfied with my results :> Except for amaths & emaths that is. :(

What more can I ask for ? ♥

1. I'll do a proper post soon, I know my blog's been really neglected.
2. Made my day x1: A blogshop owner actually sent me an item FOC :D
3. Made my day x2: I wasnt really late in meeting vanessa this time round.
4. Made my day x3: Awesome weather!!!! :D No sun, No rain , Yes wind.
5. Made my day x4: Fantabulous dinner @ Paradise dynasty! :p
6. Made my day x5:MYE'S OVER!
7. Spoilt my  day x1: I'm broke
8. Spoilt my day x2: Couldnt meet someone
9. Spoilt my day x3: Didnt really do much shopping
10. I desperately need to pack my room.

PS/ Blog again when I receive all the peeeks!

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11. Spoilt my day x4: NAGGINGS !

Undaunted.

Fat hamster cheeks! :( Taken during chinese lesson by priscilla. We were having this conversation about how some people have perfectly sculpted cheekkksss -squeeeallllss- while mine seems to be as round as a full moon. Sad case. Sighhhhhh!

And how I hate my front teeth.............
Teeth and cheeks aside,

This! Chinese & English paper 1 tomorrow. And my chinese being cui as ever. HOW. x.x

How am I to survive without my dearest chinese-pro priscilla by my side!? She's my fairy godmother for all things chineseeee - clearly evident in the above image. Wish me loads of luck! xx. Lucks to all cchyian taking exams tmr too!

So anyway, about my dayy, I think today should be what I call a "Jean day" . I've been little miss happy and little miss smile throughout the day. I was really in high spirits all the way till I reached home, despiteeeee me being picked to be Kenneth Ng's new victim :( Just because of the use of handphone. Eh c'mon , my teachers pick up phone calls in the midst of a lesson too! I wasnt even using it during lessons but during assembly,but whatever it is, I broke the rules ,i know i know i know :( Priya sort of saved me though, really thankful ;') I luvvvv her and I overheard Ng mentioning that I had to be detained and my parents shall be called and I escaped the detention by chionging out of the school while noone was looking -proud!- and so farrrr, my mom hasnt been called,so I guess no news is good news? :D Hopefully. & I'm supposed to serve detention for skipping sports day too!!!! :< So many detentions....... :(
But I'm still a happy Jean!

Almost lovers

I hope so.